So, how'd I do? Well, I think I would have liked to have done better. I became aware of all the times that toxicity, like sludge, bubbled from my mouth. The good news is that I put a stop to it. The "bad" news - though I hesitate to label it thusly - is that, more times than not, I froze or, in some instances, ran away... literally. I didn't know what else to say instead.
At least I became aware... It was a victory, in and of itself.
On to this week... Becoming aware of and battling the Comparison Queen. OH! She is one of my arch-nemesis. Both with her Mask of Inferiority, as well as Superiority. Though, more often than not, she likes to take the approach of making me feel inferior because, in all honesty, it is where she finds the path of least resistance, I think.
Which areas does she prefer to strike?
My weight/body. "Everyone is getting skinny, but you. Aren't they looking good? And you? You're still fat. No matter what you do, you'll remain that way." Which, if our thoughts do indeed create our reality, I suspect is why I can exercise and eat right and lose nothing to show for it.
My writing. "Did you read his/her words? Weren't they great? Too bad you can't write something of the sort. And (where blogs are concerned) look at how many followers she/he has, and all those commenters. What do you have to show for your efforts? Oh... Look at that. Nothing."
My house, my clothes, my abilities (you name it), etc. Everything and anything that can be used to compare me to anyone else.
It was a discussion that I was having with my kids the other day. My IMG? I might have mentioned that I've run into "it" before. Only, at the time, I pictured it to be a HIM. An old, pompous man of high social standing, who looks down his nose at EVERYONE, especially me.
I may just have to hunt through my documents and find the conversation he and I had (as one-sided as it may have been) not to long ago. He was really rather cruel in his tirade concerning my writing and creativity, but it is something that I've been working to get past, and whether my Inner Critic be male or female or a whole slew of personas matters not. Through this 40-day Inner Cleanse, we'll be working together by the end of it.
Here Amy and Christine speak about comparison and ways that we can transform it into something positive.
Interested in joining us? It's still time! Hope you'll join us in this wonderful exercise in awareness as we move toward greater self love...
I am participating in the Inner Mean Girl 40-day Cleanse as a Self-Love Ambassador.
To thank me for my participation, I will receive a self-love gift from the founders of
the Inner Mean Girl Reform School
To thank me for my participation, I will receive a self-love gift from the founders of
the Inner Mean Girl Reform School
