Admittedly, I'm beginning to feel as though I've opened something akin to Pandora's Box in regard to all the inner work I am doing... I'm almost reticent to mention it, but I have been finding myself doing quite a bit of running away the past few days. Literally, running away.
This is not easy, this work that we do. But, it does stand to reason, really. Like a sedimentary rock, each year lived unawares, is like another layer of dirt and grim piled on. So, it is no wonder, when we finally say, "enough is enough" and "I'm tired of feeling like this"... Well, it is not easy to dig down through the accumulated muck and mud in search of that singular seed that, when it emerges as a seedling, is the True Self. And just from the brief glimpses I catch of my own... It is a reward in and of itself of a tough job done well.
In addition to this, I'm finding that once located and found, it's difficult to keep what could pass as a consistent handle upon it. The day-to-day world is good at causing a type of temporary amnesia. I am able to recall my Authentic Self, that I even have one, but throughout the course of a day with all the stress and outward influences I, more times than not, temporarily misplace her.
This is a place where the Universe (aka synchronicity) steps in and attempts to guide me along, I believe. Because this is an idea that I've been pondering all day long. How do I successfully connect with my Authentic Self on a higher level and remain in conscious contact while living a normal every day life as a mother, military spouse of a deployed soldier... HOW does one pull it off under "normal" circumstances??
So, it is quite interesting for me to note that an email arrived in my inbox with regard to an upcoming FREE teleseminar series called Beyond Awakening. Nearly 30 speakers, all talking about (as I understand it) how to still grow spiritually while living the lives that many of us do today. I'm still not certain when it starts, but, if you're interested, you might check it out... Beyond Awakening: the Future of Spiritual Practice.
Like Dory (from Finding Nemo) said... just keep swimming, just keep swimming. I'm just moving ever forward and flowing with the changes and the synchronicity coming my way.
Disclosure: I have no associations with anyone affiliated with the Beyond Awakening teleseries. However, I am participating in the Inner Mean Girl 40-day Cleanse as a Self-Love Ambassador. To thank me for my participation, I will receive a self-love gift from the founders of the Inner Mean Girl Reform School.